F.Y.I. --> you CANT push me around!! Move it or lose it!!!

I hate them!!!! They're all over the road, they're enormous, inconsiderate and are absolutely dominating the roads causing complete chaos and pandemonium!!

You guessed it, massive semi-trailer trucks and even normal trucks...

Parramatta Road, one of many, has got to be in the top 5 of Sydney's most hated roads. Just close your eyes and picture 3 narrow, scruffy, old, torn and totally ditched riven lanes that together call themselves Parramatta Rd.

As if the situation couldn't get any worse, the fabulous trucks of the road decide to make my life that bit more interesting. As i drive everyday on Parramatta Rd, I'm disgusted and horrified on the state of Sydney drivers. Ok so myself i'm no Craig Lowndes but i'm sure that i'm better than half, no wait, at least 3/4 of the drivers out there, and i'm only on my greens.

As soon as I ditch one pot hole another reappears instantly forcing my toleration levels at 7:30am to depreciate considerably. Not only are the roads bad but the massive trucks are BAD!! They not only take up their own lane but have the metal capacity to take to leaving me and other fellow sedan and 4wd drivers out on a limb.

No only do i hate how they CLEARLY HOG the roads, their manners could do with some sharpening..how hard is it to stick your hand up and say/ acknowledge a thankyou when you are let in when trying to merge for example? That goes for all drivers, truckies especially...

Ohh and lets not start on their speeding habits, no-one thinks your big clocking 200km on main roads!!

I'm sure June Dally Watkins could teach these truck drivers a few lessons or two...

motivation - gone... will to work - gone... morale - smashed... chance of succeeding with this attitude - NEVER!

Does anyone ever experience that feeling of never being good enough, no matter how hard you try or want something it just never seems to translate into reality. Why does everything at the moment feel so far fetched and out of reach?

I'm often faced with this dilemma and obstacle where the light at the end of the tunnel just seems to be fading more and more!

Definitely in need of a morale boost or something because at moment I feel like I'm stranded up the proverbial creek with no paddle.

saying goodbye...

Someones father, mother, daughter, son, sister, brother, friend, relative or even acquaintance...

The disbelief that someone close to your heart has passed away can be a life changing and challenging moment in a persons life.
No-one wants to say goodbye,
its such a permanent label attached to something
and no-one wants to say goodbye but rather
see you later, see you soon, until next time...

My friend recently lost her father to cancer and let me express as I sit here and and write to you my loyal readers, i shed tears.
This man was the life of every party, especially Laurens (not her real name).
He was a healthy, young, vibrant soul whose personality was nothing short of fun, trust and optimism.
He was a traditional 54 year old European migrant who instilled his strong beliefs and values into his family... this only brought the family closer.

Lauren would ask herself ...
- why me?
- why my dad?
- did i do something?
... often looking to the future, only to feel MORE alone and MORE cold.
- who will walk me down the aisle?
My dad wont be there to see and meet his grand kids, hear their first words, or attend their recreational attitudes.

She feels lost, confused and bewildered, only to remind herself and reminisce on the good times. The proud moments and the challegnes they overcame, making them stronger than ever.

Shes happy that he's safe and out of pain and how his memory will live not only in her life bit the lives of everyone he made smile.

Its not goodbye, just see you later.

looks are deceiving

How many people out there can actually say they're got a great group of friends that can all actually be trusted?...for those out there who answered yes, u are a lucky bunch and congrats but for many of us particularly in our teen years and particularly for girls...bitchiness has been taken to an all time new level...

gone are the days of best friends forever and always being there for each other, these days its all about the partner...i know because I've recently experienced such heartbreak...yes you heard it, a friend has broken up with me so to speak to get back with her former bf, a chauvinistic, intolerable, self righteous asshole who is of particular disgust to me. He's not only over-controlling..wait for it...the poor girl can't even go for an after work coffee with me without him calling 6 billion times to make sure were alone and that she's not secretly cheating on him, mind u i soo wish she would!!)

OK now i know that's harsh but come on this 'new boyfriend' (who is actually an old boyfriend and she's rekindled the love) has not only taken away one of my best friends, he's made it really uncomfortable between us, ehh the sight and thought of him is just giving me goosebumps now...men...

Now, I don't want to be sounding like the crazy girl who wants her best friend all to herself, its really bad!!! sure, all i want is miss naive (my friend) to be happy and the last thing i want to see is her all upset and dramatic and he does all this to her. Arghhhh i love blogging at the moment it comes in handy when I need to vent and there's no1 around to listen to my sad sob story. Why is it that she loves the drama in her life? After all the heartache and discomfort and pain this stupid boyfriend has caused y on earth would she or could she let him back into her life?? I don't understand...

It's hard to even answer such a question myself..being in a great, trustworthy and strong relationship i find it hard to comprehend that such things are happening to her..This psycho guy at first sight is so charismatic, charming and an all round top guy so why the sudden change in heart? Once he knew he had secured her loved y did he pounce like a lion on everyone around her and begin to treat her like a 2year old..doesn't every guy know already that insecurity is the most unattractive trait!!!!

boy I've got my hands full with this one...

the sexistest man to walk the face of the earth

He brought SEXY BACK and a lot more!!

Sex symbol Justin Timberlake is one FINE piece of creation and i'm sorry bloggers if your looking for an entry that is more substantial, educational or mind-challenging so to speak...save that thought for the next piece of exquisit literature and just take a second with me to lathe and indulge in the phenomena that is JT.

FutureSexLoveShow was absolutely AMAZING...it blew my mind away and the rest of Sydney for that matter. I made sooo many recordings and took so many images that your're going to love me even more because i'm going to put them up!! woo hooo!!

This is his royal sexiness performing my love...



Ok so the master man himself with his extremely talented entourage came on stage @ about 8.10 or so and played straight through to 11... HE WAS FRICKEN AMAZING!!! the dancing, the moves, his whole persona...(sorry if your getting sick of hearing me re-iterate the same thing but i know you love it...just enjoy it for the rest of this blog)...

NOT TO MENTION HIS SEXINESS, oohhhhhhh was he sexy, thats an understatement...